bibu一下

終于，星期日就回關丹了。回到關丹去，就真的會拋下在吉隆坡這里的一切，不會主動聯絡誰，也應該不會上網。我需要更多的時間沉淀。

這個部落，應該也會先暫時被擱置。:)

我回到來的時候，希望他會懂了我的想法..

渦，我亂

埋游于紙煙中的鯉，黃濁蒙在律流上，性情不定。
遇龍，見鯰，碰鰻，諸皆鱗鱗相撞。

唉，都是自己的見地還是很狹隘尚淺，碰上某些事情，表面上不在乎，口說沒關系，心卻還是耿耿于懷。不是說要把借口套上，不過，那件事還真造成了不少的的異變。開始不懂得如何要去面對人，不曉得如何和大家相處。那個定點總是抓拿不準。近日，還真是把事情都搞砸了。

我需要時間沉淀。

保持冷靜，注意適度。我能嗎?

歸樸

滿腔的斥言，溢懷的冷眼，曾經，浮流于我的朽想，缠。可，完成了最后的設計assignment，明悟了。原以為的自身，并不是那樣的。

我的畫作，并不能像些群，有造成眾人嘩撼的美。自己適合的一套，還是那“路邊的狗屎都能亂掰成真理”-有著更深層面。我很欣喜于把自己的想法融入畫作，配上應有的解釋，結果就被朋友說成理由借口多。再發現，我對日式比復古更為熟悉，伏筆至尾點也沒啥問題。

不再为那以他人为蓝本的我，惊觉镜中那曲丑的怪物，终于变回了最熟悉-貌似卢广仲的宅男样。

可惜的事，也是最普通的事，每个人都会有不同的诠释。我不想变成你想象中的那么对组没有贡献，也不想变成被你看底的我。你你不是另外两个他，他他所说的，我都会一笑释然。

算了，又不是第一次了。

还剩下6科，拼了，就回关丹去。 :)

若无其事，我办不到。所以，宽宏大量的英雄你来做，我比较想当心胸狭隘的恶人。

谢Taki

谢谢你的冰糖薄荷。:)

回旋的藍

♥ Listening to : Summer on the westhill - The King of Convenience


繁，想要閑的意念會絲絲滲出，一陣郁麝亦隨浮。

看到了BBF第一卷的照片，很想很想，買杯星巴克的熱巧克力，就地坐在木質地板上，燈光滯黃，大空彌漫indie pop旋律，翻閱著無數的書本。這是何等的寫意呀。

不曉得自己在愁些啥，最近都是心神恍惚，情緒在日天與月夜都有著兩極的差異。可能是貪婪心在作祟，總覺得自己擁有得不夠多，想要得到更多。

沉淀，定思。

除了一般人都會說的 - 無論是家庭，朋友，四肢健全，思路正常，受教育這些基本的普通，我其實有著比這些還多。

我有夢，還有實現它的機會。

在進入這學院的決定落下時，我就開始一步一步邁向自己所向往的大道。來到了這大都市，許多想過但不曾實踐的事就開始咬合了。除了學業上能學到的，也開始了摸索攝影，攝影之后想要探索寫作（若時間允許）。這些都是之前，向“為了平穩高收入的未來”低頭，乖乖拿好成績而不敢奢求能碰觸到的。

正如所謂的世事難料，還真沒想過，想過我能這樣的享受求學。

反省。

無論如何，就做回我自己就好。反正我都是很隨便隨和的，應該沒多大問題吧。

我普通，所以我特別。 ：）

印度的絢麗絲綢

*不小心under-exposed而得到的效果。

事件，因為不了解而美。宛如這照片，因為對事件的透視度不深，起步加速轉折都沒有見證過，一層絢幻的薄紗就會裹上，看到的，只再會是讓人癡醉的海市蜃樓。

最近，都纏繞于舍與得。三思，我選擇了放棄某些自身覺得不屬于我的紅煙縷；機緣，我順道爭取了眾群吾身想要同行的手足。殊，嚷嚷的竊竊私語開始按捺不住。

我命本凡，乃凡夫俗子，思想見解的宏度在七步詩還未能想出前就見邊了。視出，每天為人著想體諒別人忘了自己的立場不易表達自己的感觀與面容與語言，顧及顧忌從而很累。

新月滿月內，因釋懷從而放松，語言界限顧慮與感觀保留都拋于后腦，胡言亂語亂七八糟不排隊；可，我因不再藏藏暱暱，映射最原本的自身，有著最真的開心。

今日，我卻只能說樂極生悲。

以我們的友情，有啥是不能攤出來談的??而且還要容忍到開始不理會我們的那一步!!換作是別人我還可以明白，不過，現在的對象是我和升呢!!你現在啥都是妃，我們算啥??

傷心至極，莫不過于我以為你會明白。反之...

豪，起身咯

♥ Listening to : Envoy - The King of Convenience

翻着一张又一张之前用炭头摄下的照片，感慨，为何在关丹时没拍多一些。

相中的电灯柱，就屹立在我家前，无保留地照耀着。有几何的早晨是没有注视它，等待着安娣来载送我上学；有多少的夜晚是没有眺望它，再走入家中因补习累而倒头大睡。

啊，看来思家愁又来袭了。

在思愁浓得比旧街咖啡店的咖啡乌还更为浓的时候，找了力豪，说了

“ 突然间 很想家。 ”
“ 有哪時是不想的？ ”，力豪不假思索地就回答了。
“ 怎么你那么厉害的？ ”，我惊讶。
“ 這個好像是可以歸類去常識的。 ”，不用瞧，都能想象到他的拽样。

不过，他所言不无道理，我确实都在想家，没有说特定选个黄道吉时。

不晓得为何，反正就是没有理由，我不由自主地哼起了

if lies you tell can make it better
and hopeless dreams can make your day
you don't have to leave your friends
this is the morning...

This is the morning, Club 8.

Thanks, Miss Guan

Raining. I was shocked when I heard the "BANG" as I step on the platform of the bus stop. That sound reminds me of the incident happened on my brother and the feeling appears again. My mind gone blank when I saw that was her car. I don't want that incident happens again and I can't afford to lose anyone from you guys. Luckily, she and the others are okay and he is there for her. Thanks God.

最真的我，最真的话

♥ Listening to : Say Yes If You Love Me - Acid House Kings

最近，除了上一次的鲤鱼+相机paper relief，我也鲜少把自己的作品放上来了。其实，在那过后也有弄另一个paper sculpture，但是我觉得是简单到不能见人，所以就只放在房角去。不过，今天就放上之前刚刚交上的History project吧。

这个project，基本上就是关于自己的portfolio，里面是有4张不同版本的自像画。概念是如此，至于主题是怎样就随己喜欢，自由发挥。我的封面，是有点敷衍了事。

这是我的第一幅，用传统的铅笔描述法所画出的自己。不苟言笑，是要带出我也是有认真的一面。为了画到不是在笑，就不小心把嘴巴画走样了一点。过分的是，他们竟然说我把自己画得稍微好看去了。明明就还不是一样。

这一幅画，是必须选出其中一个我们学过的美术流动来呈现自己的画像。在不是很明白下，我就选了expressionism，因为提倡的就是表达自己。一目了然，红红的鼻子就明喻着自己好像小丑般，在人前总是嘻嘻哈哈的，内心世界却不是每个人都懂。

最后一幅，是自由题材，也就是我们可以用自己喜欢的方式熟悉的上色发来完成。这幅画还真是多亏了chris的帮忙。这画代表着大我，我始终是一个开朗快乐的家伙。画中其实还有许多玄机的，不过，也不多说啦。呵呵。

4张中，有一张是照片，所以我就没有放出来了。反正，又不是没有看过我的照片。

现在，我正在做着一个自己还蛮喜欢的design project，概念是maximalism，而主题是街道。为了不想和同学做相同的街道加上我不是很了解这里的街道的文化，我选择了关丹的主街-咸鱼街。毕竟，关丹是我的家乡，文化方面还了解得还蛮深入的。结果，就在我一直找照片和research时，弄得我思乡想家，魂不守舍般的。我几时才能会到关丹去呢?

若现在问我，有啥事情让我开心吗。我会回答，有，而且是3件事情-与部落格的朋友（json和anson，加上我hanson，大家名字后面都是son呢 XD）一起吃晚餐，看了某人的部落和简单地过了平静的一天。其实，开心真的是莫过于最简单的事了。


For idiotic yongcheng low and stupid singwei wei,

What I have done is because I really think both of you are the perfect match and you are the best for each other. I'm happy now when seeing you two around like that. It's enough for me when both of you are happy, I'm glad it turned out in this way. It's not easy for me to let go and put down before this, okay~ So, both of you better appreciate each other more than anything. And, treat me good as well. XD Don't you dare sweet until forget my existence. Or else, I will bite you two. :)

Best wishes from moron han.

I'm your dad and I said SLOW DOWN

The week before was such a hectic week.

*Rushing in order to finish 4 portraits of myself in different way with 250 essay each portrait for the history mid-term project. Sleep like dead corpse afterward.
*Did a mock up which looks like a polystyrene rice box for packaging design project.
*Drew 3 thumbnails of maximalism+RGB concept+animal themed for computer graphic final project.
*Finish a figure and first body figure drawing after I overslept. Luckily lecturer didn't collect the sketchbook since mine is unfinished.
*Designed a whole set of lower case alphabet based on flower-theme in proper proportion which looks like banana skin and some say condom.

Overall, everything is still under control except for the submission of documents for PTPTN. It was such a mess. I only got to know that the officer will be here after two days on Wednesday. While, I don't have all the needed documents on my hand. After some hardship, I still didn't get the enough things needed. But, in the morning of Friday, i finally managed to get everything. The part that made me mad was I have to queue up from about 11am until 4pm to get the submission done. Somemore, the incharged department didn't tell us to be fully prepared. My friends and me were running around to get the documents we missed. Furthermore, the officers and some of the students were so annoying to piss people off. Luckily it ended up I passed. Otherwise...

Thus, I was extremely late for the Calligraphy class and i felt insanely exhausted. I decided not to go to the Halloween Night then. After i got some rest, we went for a movie-Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs. Yea, that movie is quite amusing in my opinion. After the movie, I met one of my primary schoolmate and that day was her birthday! I got slight fever after the movie. Duh.

Now, I'm trying to get out of my safe territory and think out of the box in any aspect. Hopefully everything gonna be alright.

Starbucks is my another classroom.

Striked by lightning, BOOM

♥ Listening to : The Buil Up - King of Convenience



Due to the reason that I have to respect my friend, the another part of our story will be uploaded after some times.

Quite amount of things had happened recently. This made me upset for certain time. Luckily, friends are around by my side whenever, wherever, and whatever. A lot of thanks i want to say to them. And, I think you all knew that I am talking about you. Cheng is right. I can't take yang from you all that much.

Well, i did learn that smiling when u are sad is actually quite simple. Just with few steps or actions then it will works. Credit goes to 鸡鸡 who can make me smile that easily. As he said, one more minute you feel happy, one minute less you feel sad. Hey 鸡鸡, you should apply them on yourself as well. Cheer up ya.

Thinking of the way to reduce stress, maybe i should go for some shopping. Loads of stuff are in my current wishlist. But narh, i don't have that much of money to be wasted just like that. Delicious meal or Starbucks would be okay and satisfy me.

Simplicity is just the most basic keynote to make your life great. *wink*

Benny's bed is just too comfortable for me to resist! Paiseh..

琉璃的決堤

赤裸，我这次还真是完全褪下衣裳，没有再遮掩。幾回，在星巴克，或是能獨處的地方，我們是那樣坦蕩蕩地交心。心門敞開，不保留，還真是我的第一次嘗試。

真心的朋友，我終於認知了。

其實，我們倆都不曾讓任何人突破自己的最低防線。不曉得為何，我們卻好像對方心房的鑰匙，一道一道門打開，一步一步跨進去。

在結識後，伏線早已被埋下了。一件比“那年我們一起追的女孩更拉風的事件”，引發了一切的延續發展。

一开始述说，他是打从心底地厌恶我，全只因以前有个样貌声线都与我相似的跟k可恶屁虫环绕着他的生活。话说，第一次被design老师配对来画画时，我仍记得他那超拽的样子-何时何刻和我说话都不对上眼神。上CG课时，他心里还因为我的声音而想捉我起来赏巴。

不过，在第一次和他还有其他组员出购材料的那一次，我想，他应该已经察觉到我其实并不是那么的讨人厌。

之后，我们的接触也随着课堂而增加，朋友的关系也愈来愈浓厚。

有那么两次，我们还有几位朋友到了patrick家做功课。第一次，他竟然被一个电脑游戏吸引而懒惰画所需的格子，结果，他们就复印我画好的来使用。然后，那也是我第一次到他家去续摊做功课。第二次，大概也是我们这一伙，到了Pyramid内去购买collage的材料。哈哈，这一次，我从他的身上学到了所谓的“聪明”购物法。

有那么一次，我经历着在学院的低潮期，就那么刚巧，让他知道。多谢了他的开导，糟糕的想法一一被驱走。

在我真正认识了lomo后，他也投于兴趣，自然而然，我们开始探讨lomo摄影。现在，也还引起了更多人的参与。

一个周末吃粥下午的前一晚，他问了我，是否要和他一起去到新加坡参观盛大的玩具漫画展。两人旅行正是个能更深入认识的机会。可是，我懂他是个意见与想法不合就会疏远你得人，深怕这段友情就因为这次的旅行而断绝。所以，我只好婉拒了。

其实，认真地算一算，我以前5年的朋友和我都可能没有经历过如此的如此交扣的生活。

我们之间还有许多蛮相像的共同点-家里有着一辆我们出世时购买的Honda Accord，用着的同一系列斜背包都是朋友送的，背包和ATM卡都是同样颜色，橱柜里都是白T居多，一起喜欢着Retro的题材，目睹与经历过朋友友情上的纷争，同样很早就开始把心中的钥匙暗地里交给对方。就算到了现在，我们甚至...

待续..

Koi in the dust whirl

♥ Listening to : Valder Fields - Tamas Wells

After few hours of struggling, I finally got to finish my paper relief assignments. Early of the morning, my roommate found me lying on the floor in living room like a corpse.

Actually, it haven't completely finish by that time. Thanks to da tong who came to wake me up after i get some real rest in the room and helped me to color my koi fish.

Tadah!! It's presentable in the end.


The camera is a lomo camera- fisheye. On top of the camera actually really got a koi fish emboss which done by myself. I'm quite HAO LIAN with that and teased by sheng and da tong. The smoke is cut from the tracing paper and stick onto the background. This cost me a lot of time and even made my finger injured.

But, too bad it's out of the theme we were required to make which is the paper relief. My work is already consider as paper sculpture. So, i can't really get high marks. Although is in that way, I still very satisfied with what i have done.

炭头暂别前

一张，朋友在日本邮寄回来的明信片，一张，薄弱却能承载着心念的明信片。

清闲的午间，在阳光下写写，何尝不是件快活事。

拍你的同时，你拍我，宛如一片嘻哈镜在面前。

石兽，坚守着自己的岗位；妖魔鬼怪，还不退下。

远处的小姐，你未免也太纤瘦了吧。吃多些呀。

一件又一件的要事，记录在随身的笔记本，想赖掉也难。

生活节奏快?别找借口说时间紧凑了，慢慢来，比较快。

茶后一支烟，快乐似神仙?我看，快见神仙的是我们二手烟民呢。

英国绅士装，黄色的黑鸟飞，眼光瞩目都在我身上了。

我的晓阳，星巴克与它，格调是那么的相像。

这些都是我第一次尝试用Provia这一种slide来拍，蛮喜欢其比较自然的色调。更多照片，请看
1st Provia

跌落地球的火星男孩

学院，虽说只上了几个月的课，可，学到的还真的不少。

每个人都持着自身的观点来生活，我们开通地接受妥协当儿，其实还需要纳取些好的部分，补己之短。

面对一些难堪的情况，与其戴上面具虚假地迎合，勉强自己；不如圆滑地处理，皆大欢喜。

生活圈子，本是无穷尽的圆圈，我们又何必要在进尺内规划，不踏出安全地带，成为约束自己的魁主。

缘，乃无根之物，不可强求，强留不得。朋友，情人，仇敌，因缘在作怪。我们应该欣慰曾经拥有，何必在乎无尽地延续。

不时之天，不利之地，不和之人，忍与释然当道。时事造英雄呀。

只有不断地领悟，就越明白人非圣贤。所以，朋友们，接下来，我们好好相处吧。

黄色的黑鸟飞

♥ Listening to : 方大同 - 红豆

这就是上次卖关子的东西，我的新宠，黄色的Black Bird Fly相机。黑色的机身配上黄色的正面，再加上两个镜瞳，它还真是帅极了。帅气阳光十足的它，就被我取了“晓阳”这一个名字（桀森不要讲我硬要文艺啦）。话说，带着晓阳还真是蛮拉风的，走到哪儿都会引来所有人的目光。

由于对于晓阳的了解还不深，迟迟到现在都还没喂上一卷底片。待我哥的一番指导后，就会到处去烧片了。

学院生活，一开学就上轨了。assignments assignments assignments的。不同的倒是，大家都会珍惜同在一起的时间。开学以来，就一直在出游，计划活动，当然还有包括一起熬夜。没办法，谁叫我们下一个学期就必须分开，进入各自选择的major了。

新学期了，要来一些不同的，我要贯彻好（第四声）恋于自身。不明白好恋为何物?那就算了。

The Colorful Unsolved Rubik Cube

It has been a long time since the last time i blogged in English. I think this will makes bui wei very happy because she doesn't need to translate my blog page for this time.
The first week for my second semester has passed just like that. But it doesn't make me bored or anything and tons of assignment still is a must for us. In this week, I went to quite some places such as Fullhouse, Ikea, Ikano, The Curve, SS2 and Puchong.

It was a wonderful memory for us going to Fullhouse together. Although we got lost since we don't really know the direction and due to some circumstance(someone has pointed the wrong direction). The food there was quite okay and the environment is superb. Photo snapping has never stop. I'm really addicted to green tea cake.

Afterward, my teammates and me went to Ikea-Ikano-The Curve for photo snapping session(environment) and group discussion for assignments. Too bad for others can't follow.

The night was still young when we were leaving Ikea at 10.30pm. So, we decided to go to SS2 for yamcha session. We did some chit-chating at a Taiwanese restaurant. When the clock strikes 1, we called that a day.

The following morning was my first drawing class. Oh gosh, waking up in the early of morning is torturing me after all sort of activities have been carry out. But still, i enjoyed my class. I just drank a cup of milo kosong ice(my usual drink) as my breakfast after the class since my stomach was not feeling well for past few days. Vision art, we spent so much of money at there once again. Duh.

After some mental conflicts happened within myself, I made up my mind to go to Puchong with my friends for the purpose of doing assignments together. I only got WOW this word to describe what I have seen at Puchong. haha. I will just keep it as a secret. Well, the time I spent at Puchong is quite worth.

Night time, I went for a movie with some my friends. We watched Gamer and I don't think it worth RM12. Who want to buy me Orphan DVD. Cetak rompak will do.

I did few things i think is quite cool. Such as lying down in Ikea and snap picture while people are passing by and watching you like they saw some kind of freak. Pushing a trolley with a big toy figure sitting in it around my rental house area to get my friend before we go to Sunway Pyramid together. I think I will try something new out in the future.




I also spent quite an amount of money on few things. I get a strap for my camera and bla-bla-bla.. But I got something that is totally gorgeous for myself.

Hint:


The secret will be revealed soon. Stay tuned. :)

铲子继续挖

昨天，趁着公共假期，我们几个人，少少的，就上了吧生一趟。为的是，帮Eric庆祝已过的生日。


看，上面写着的是Si Hiao Po Kanasai(死娇婆 像大便*福建话)大家是不是从未在任何人的蛋糕上见过这样的祝福语呢?

时隔3个星期，我今天终于展开了第二个学期，全新的另一个学期。

Design 2的讲师是我上学期finished art的讲师-Reis，所以一点都不陌生。不过，第一堂课多另一位讲师。她应该是督导Reis而来。两位讲师都还蛮风趣的，而且，我第一听到讲师竟然会说：“ Go die larr you~” 或是 “panggil mereka pergi mati~”天呀，真的是笑死我们了。

Letterforms & Calligraphy是我们这学期崭新的一堂课，顾名思义，我们学的就是字母的设计。我们的讲师是一位从瑞士来的外国人，还是很帅的一位，我的朋友一看到他就小小声喊他dear。虽然这堂课是上的蛮开心，但是，可恶的是这堂课的上课时间必须换去星期五。这样一来，我这学期就必须上一星期中的六天课，妈呀。

上了才那么一天课，3个assignments就下来了，我们是多么的“开心”呀。2篇essay和50张照片，拼了!

感觉来了，等啥，拍呀

炭头一直都乖乖呆在我的身边，只要我看到啥觉得：啊，应该拍下来，就会随手从口袋拿出它，CHAK一声。在还未回到关丹前，我喂了炭头一卷Velvia。





回到关丹，当然一定是继续拍。








正当一天下午，我和朋友出去了吃午餐，很不巧地炭头不乖，给我卡film。在被逼下，我只好放弃接下来的几张未拍底片，换上手上仅有的EBX。Another round，继续拍。








其实，成品还有许多张，想看看的话，请点击以下。
Velvia
EBX

倾听水儿的低鸣

啊哈，我今天到了学院一趟去。无他原因，志在是查阅成绩和拿取新学期的时间表。

成绩，还可以说是中规中矩，没有很好也没有很差，就2科A2科C3科B（间中有+有-）还有一科pending（讲师还未处理好分数）。看来，下学期加油就得了。

至于时间表，如下：
Monday :
History of Art & Design : 10.00am-12.00pm , Language & Communication Skill 2 : 1.00pm-3.00pm

Tuesday :
Design 2 : 9.30am-12.30pm , Letterforms & Calligrahy : 2.00pm-5.00pm

Wednesday :
Computer Graphic Design 2 : 4.30pm-7.30pm

Thursday :
Figure Studies 2 : 2.00pm-6.00pm

Saturday :
Drawing 2 : 2.00pm-5.00pm

天呀，我新学期尽然需要在星期六上课，那我要如何能在周末会家乡?我的中秋回乡计划看来是近乎泡汤了（心里咒骂了一番，不宜写出，啊哈）。

算了，反正也是无能更改的事情，一直碎碎念也只是在折磨他人的双耳。

一切正经事办妥后，我们大伙儿就享用了早餐。时隔两个星期，大家好似都有说不尽话，把cafe闹得热轰轰的。吃完了早餐，当然就是开始我们的Lagoon游乐时光。

Lagoon内欢乐无限，笑声不断。过程，我 不 告 诉 你 们，我自己心中记得就好。呵呵。

晚间时分，由于我、狄升、Eric、毓心和宇静觉得疲惫，所以没有随同其他人到大老远的·Puchong吃shabu shabu，选择到附近的Yuen火锅店解决肚饿。抱歉，我们不是有心不和你们一同前往的、

今天很开心class4和class2也是有朋友和我们一起玩。虽说，我的额外购物budget的一部分必须拿出来成为了今天的花费，不过我觉得这一切都还蛮值得的，因为没人会拒绝拥有一段开心的时光美好的回忆。

累了，休息去，晚安。