回旋的藍

♥ Listening to : Summer on the westhill - The King of Convenience


繁，想要閑的意念會絲絲滲出，一陣郁麝亦隨浮。

看到了BBF第一卷的照片，很想很想，買杯星巴克的熱巧克力，就地坐在木質地板上，燈光滯黃，大空彌漫indie pop旋律，翻閱著無數的書本。這是何等的寫意呀。

不曉得自己在愁些啥，最近都是心神恍惚，情緒在日天與月夜都有著兩極的差異。可能是貪婪心在作祟，總覺得自己擁有得不夠多，想要得到更多。

沉淀，定思。

除了一般人都會說的 - 無論是家庭，朋友，四肢健全，思路正常，受教育這些基本的普通，我其實有著比這些還多。

我有夢，還有實現它的機會。

在進入這學院的決定落下時，我就開始一步一步邁向自己所向往的大道。來到了這大都市，許多想過但不曾實踐的事就開始咬合了。除了學業上能學到的，也開始了摸索攝影，攝影之后想要探索寫作（若時間允許）。這些都是之前，向“為了平穩高收入的未來”低頭，乖乖拿好成績而不敢奢求能碰觸到的。

正如所謂的世事難料，還真沒想過，想過我能這樣的享受求學。

反省。

無論如何，就做回我自己就好。反正我都是很隨便隨和的，應該沒多大問題吧。

我普通，所以我特別。 ：）

印度的絢麗絲綢

*不小心under-exposed而得到的效果。

事件，因為不了解而美。宛如這照片，因為對事件的透視度不深，起步加速轉折都沒有見證過，一層絢幻的薄紗就會裹上，看到的，只再會是讓人癡醉的海市蜃樓。

最近，都纏繞于舍與得。三思，我選擇了放棄某些自身覺得不屬于我的紅煙縷；機緣，我順道爭取了眾群吾身想要同行的手足。殊，嚷嚷的竊竊私語開始按捺不住。

我命本凡，乃凡夫俗子，思想見解的宏度在七步詩還未能想出前就見邊了。視出，每天為人著想體諒別人忘了自己的立場不易表達自己的感觀與面容與語言，顧及顧忌從而很累。

新月滿月內，因釋懷從而放松，語言界限顧慮與感觀保留都拋于后腦，胡言亂語亂七八糟不排隊；可，我因不再藏藏暱暱，映射最原本的自身，有著最真的開心。

今日，我卻只能說樂極生悲。

以我們的友情，有啥是不能攤出來談的??而且還要容忍到開始不理會我們的那一步!!換作是別人我還可以明白，不過，現在的對象是我和升呢!!你現在啥都是妃，我們算啥??

傷心至極，莫不過于我以為你會明白。反之...

豪，起身咯

♥ Listening to : Envoy - The King of Convenience

翻着一张又一张之前用炭头摄下的照片，感慨，为何在关丹时没拍多一些。

相中的电灯柱，就屹立在我家前，无保留地照耀着。有几何的早晨是没有注视它，等待着安娣来载送我上学；有多少的夜晚是没有眺望它，再走入家中因补习累而倒头大睡。

啊，看来思家愁又来袭了。

在思愁浓得比旧街咖啡店的咖啡乌还更为浓的时候，找了力豪，说了

“ 突然间 很想家。 ”
“ 有哪時是不想的？ ”，力豪不假思索地就回答了。
“ 怎么你那么厉害的？ ”，我惊讶。
“ 這個好像是可以歸類去常識的。 ”，不用瞧，都能想象到他的拽样。

不过，他所言不无道理，我确实都在想家，没有说特定选个黄道吉时。

不晓得为何，反正就是没有理由，我不由自主地哼起了

if lies you tell can make it better
and hopeless dreams can make your day
you don't have to leave your friends
this is the morning...

This is the morning, Club 8.

Thanks, Miss Guan

Raining. I was shocked when I heard the "BANG" as I step on the platform of the bus stop. That sound reminds me of the incident happened on my brother and the feeling appears again. My mind gone blank when I saw that was her car. I don't want that incident happens again and I can't afford to lose anyone from you guys. Luckily, she and the others are okay and he is there for her. Thanks God.

最真的我，最真的话

♥ Listening to : Say Yes If You Love Me - Acid House Kings

最近，除了上一次的鲤鱼+相机paper relief，我也鲜少把自己的作品放上来了。其实，在那过后也有弄另一个paper sculpture，但是我觉得是简单到不能见人，所以就只放在房角去。不过，今天就放上之前刚刚交上的History project吧。

这个project，基本上就是关于自己的portfolio，里面是有4张不同版本的自像画。概念是如此，至于主题是怎样就随己喜欢，自由发挥。我的封面，是有点敷衍了事。

这是我的第一幅，用传统的铅笔描述法所画出的自己。不苟言笑，是要带出我也是有认真的一面。为了画到不是在笑，就不小心把嘴巴画走样了一点。过分的是，他们竟然说我把自己画得稍微好看去了。明明就还不是一样。

这一幅画，是必须选出其中一个我们学过的美术流动来呈现自己的画像。在不是很明白下，我就选了expressionism，因为提倡的就是表达自己。一目了然，红红的鼻子就明喻着自己好像小丑般，在人前总是嘻嘻哈哈的，内心世界却不是每个人都懂。

最后一幅，是自由题材，也就是我们可以用自己喜欢的方式熟悉的上色发来完成。这幅画还真是多亏了chris的帮忙。这画代表着大我，我始终是一个开朗快乐的家伙。画中其实还有许多玄机的，不过，也不多说啦。呵呵。

4张中，有一张是照片，所以我就没有放出来了。反正，又不是没有看过我的照片。

现在，我正在做着一个自己还蛮喜欢的design project，概念是maximalism，而主题是街道。为了不想和同学做相同的街道加上我不是很了解这里的街道的文化，我选择了关丹的主街-咸鱼街。毕竟，关丹是我的家乡，文化方面还了解得还蛮深入的。结果，就在我一直找照片和research时，弄得我思乡想家，魂不守舍般的。我几时才能会到关丹去呢?

若现在问我，有啥事情让我开心吗。我会回答，有，而且是3件事情-与部落格的朋友（json和anson，加上我hanson，大家名字后面都是son呢 XD）一起吃晚餐，看了某人的部落和简单地过了平静的一天。其实，开心真的是莫过于最简单的事了。


For idiotic yongcheng low and stupid singwei wei,

What I have done is because I really think both of you are the perfect match and you are the best for each other. I'm happy now when seeing you two around like that. It's enough for me when both of you are happy, I'm glad it turned out in this way. It's not easy for me to let go and put down before this, okay~ So, both of you better appreciate each other more than anything. And, treat me good as well. XD Don't you dare sweet until forget my existence. Or else, I will bite you two. :)

Best wishes from moron han.

I'm your dad and I said SLOW DOWN

The week before was such a hectic week.

*Rushing in order to finish 4 portraits of myself in different way with 250 essay each portrait for the history mid-term project. Sleep like dead corpse afterward.
*Did a mock up which looks like a polystyrene rice box for packaging design project.
*Drew 3 thumbnails of maximalism+RGB concept+animal themed for computer graphic final project.
*Finish a figure and first body figure drawing after I overslept. Luckily lecturer didn't collect the sketchbook since mine is unfinished.
*Designed a whole set of lower case alphabet based on flower-theme in proper proportion which looks like banana skin and some say condom.

Overall, everything is still under control except for the submission of documents for PTPTN. It was such a mess. I only got to know that the officer will be here after two days on Wednesday. While, I don't have all the needed documents on my hand. After some hardship, I still didn't get the enough things needed. But, in the morning of Friday, i finally managed to get everything. The part that made me mad was I have to queue up from about 11am until 4pm to get the submission done. Somemore, the incharged department didn't tell us to be fully prepared. My friends and me were running around to get the documents we missed. Furthermore, the officers and some of the students were so annoying to piss people off. Luckily it ended up I passed. Otherwise...

Thus, I was extremely late for the Calligraphy class and i felt insanely exhausted. I decided not to go to the Halloween Night then. After i got some rest, we went for a movie-Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs. Yea, that movie is quite amusing in my opinion. After the movie, I met one of my primary schoolmate and that day was her birthday! I got slight fever after the movie. Duh.

Now, I'm trying to get out of my safe territory and think out of the box in any aspect. Hopefully everything gonna be alright.

Starbucks is my another classroom.

Striked by lightning, BOOM

♥ Listening to : The Buil Up - King of Convenience



Due to the reason that I have to respect my friend, the another part of our story will be uploaded after some times.

Quite amount of things had happened recently. This made me upset for certain time. Luckily, friends are around by my side whenever, wherever, and whatever. A lot of thanks i want to say to them. And, I think you all knew that I am talking about you. Cheng is right. I can't take yang from you all that much.

Well, i did learn that smiling when u are sad is actually quite simple. Just with few steps or actions then it will works. Credit goes to 鸡鸡 who can make me smile that easily. As he said, one more minute you feel happy, one minute less you feel sad. Hey 鸡鸡, you should apply them on yourself as well. Cheer up ya.

Thinking of the way to reduce stress, maybe i should go for some shopping. Loads of stuff are in my current wishlist. But narh, i don't have that much of money to be wasted just like that. Delicious meal or Starbucks would be okay and satisfy me.

Simplicity is just the most basic keynote to make your life great. *wink*

Benny's bed is just too comfortable for me to resist! Paiseh..